Perspective cont...

It is New Year's Eve, and like you all, I think we sit back and try to take an intraspective look at our life over the last year or year's even.  I have to say, I truly am happy with the decisions I have made and where I am at in my life.  Of course, I still have the want of losing thirty pounds, and need to just quit being lazy.  But I am happy with who I am, what I have accomplished, what I am doing, and those I have in my life...  My husband is the greatest man on Earth and I am blessed to have him and his kids in my life, and that I can call them my family each and every day, that I am lucky enought to wake up.  For those I have fallen out of contact with, I am not saddened by it, it just means that I got sick of:  One, either doing all the intiative; or:  Two, was sick and tired of the constant games.  Life is to short, and if blood or nonblood related people in your life, bring you down, then there is no commandment that mandates you have to continually put yourself in a position to be ridiculed, harrassed and demeened.  I pray and thank the Lord for the strength in dealing with such situations, and for the guidance and love he has given me.  All of this has only brought my husband and I closer together.  My outlook for 2012 is such a positive one.  We have a lot of changes and decisions that will be needing made, and they are life altering.  I am anxious, but yet excited, and believe whatever the outcome, that that is what is meant to happen for me and my life.  The first six months of 2012 are going to be jam packed with events...I hope I don't lose focus on my personal goal for myself, and make myself a priority instead of always putting other's first.  I think I may use this default to not put myself first..It is always easier to help someone else, than to help yourself for some reason.  Well, to myself and all who read this, I wish you all a healthful and prosperous New Year.

Day 4

I have my appointment for testing in January, and I am so excited for this, but also scared to death.  I am so used to bad news and my body totally rejecting any and everything I want.  I want this so much.  I never thought I would want something so much in my life, but I do.  I have to tell myself to accept the news, whether good or bad, because atleast I will finally know...no more wondering.  My husband, from the weekend we first met, said he wanted kids with me.  I so don't want him disappointed or to look at me differrently.  I know he won't, but I think I will, and I am not sure how to cope with that yet...ugh!  Time to just roll with the punches and take everything in stride, as it is God's plan. 

Perspective day number 2

Well hello friend and self....Today's weather totally is not cooperating with working out outdoors...freezing rain and horribly terrible wind, and I am one to get an ear infection at the drop of a hat.  Maybe this is an excuse, but I would rather miss one day and double up, than be sick for two weeks with an ear infection turn bronchial infection.  On a different note, I quit refined sugar last week, and this week, I am quitting soda.  I truly do not have horrible diet habits, but I know from past experience that cutting out the soda, whether diet or regular truly does make a difference.  I fight off the caffeine headache with green tea, and just exercising.  My husband and I received good news today to add to our family, so I am more than  excited to make sure I can do all that I can to be the healthiest mommy possible.  I love my family and the future of my family, and will do anything I can to make things happen.  I truly am blessed for my husband, and would do anything for him.  May God bless you all, and help you attain whatever New Year's resolutions you have.

Perspective

Another holiday season has come and gone.  Mine is bittersweet:  Bitter, due to my husband being gone for work; Sweet, due to the wonderful friends I got to share the holidays with.  I am in the process of trying to cut out the bs in my life, and this includes people who have only done things to try and tear me down.  I think I am doing a pretty good job of it.  The only time there seems to be a problem, is when these people lie to my husband and I am then questioned.  This questioning, makes me feel like he thinks I am lying to him, or not trustworthy, but slowly and surely, he is realizing more and more that these people are just saying things to cause us to have fights and to get inbetween our marriage.  I honestly feel they are intimidated by my presence, but yet there is nothing to be intimidated about.  I am who I am, I just don't play part in the stupid games, and maybe this is the issue.  My life goes on, without these people's presence, and my life is not less of a life or damaged or without, without these people in it.  Actually, life is so much easier without them in it, because I do not have to constantly fret over how people may misunderstand what I say and somehow turn it around.  The other perspective in my life I am working on, is to quit making excuses to not get healthier.  My diet is pretty good.  I take vitamins, don't eat anything processed, and don't eat refined sugar.  My problem area is just exercising, and winter time is not helping this.  I make myself get up and go, and I feel better after I do exercise, but for whatever reason, the motivation to do it isn't there, and I need to work on this.  Today is day five, of committing to exercise, and I have already lost the motivation..However, I want the result of working out.  To be continued tomorrow...